Evolving Emotions: Counterfeit Consciousness

Smiling faces inundate my view

Their cheer attempts to breach my brain

Hammering away at the worry

The fears

The anxiety

To no avail

 

Laughter fills the air

These lungs of mine force

The artificial happiness sweeps from my breath

Choking on insincerity

 

The sight of fresh and falling snow

Brings enthusiasm to the limbs

Mine mimic

In an awkward sort of way

 

Inside a bubble

Apart from others

Left with the thoughts

That consume me

Waking and sleeping

Smiling and laughing

 

I’m crying now

Real

Raw

Instinctual

 

Yet the worries never cease

The jerking movements

The false air

The smeared smile

 

Faking in the pursuit

Of realness

Indeed.

 

EKArts

Erin Knape is a freshman who intends to major in psychology at the University of Michigan. Her greatest passions have always been the arts, whether that be writing, painting, photography, or collaging. Evolving Emotions, a weekly installment of poetry and accompanying photography, aims to communicate the unifying conceptions, thoughts, experiences, and emotions felt throughout the college journey. Explore the inner workings of a chaotic mind in Evolving Emotions every Sunday.

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Owen
5 months 4 days ago

Hey, I really liked the poem. It represents anxiety and depression very well.