{"id":14145,"date":"2020-10-25T16:19:40","date_gmt":"2020-10-25T20:19:40","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/?p=14145"},"modified":"2020-10-25T16:32:17","modified_gmt":"2020-10-25T20:32:17","slug":"old-thoughts-on-my-body","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/2020\/10\/25\/old-thoughts-on-my-body\/","title":{"rendered":"Old Thoughts on My Body"},"content":{"rendered":"

From the rigid\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Rough beige, brown\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Of ripped nails on stubbed toes<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Ashy feet on rugged heels<\/span><\/p>\n

Using a finger a shade lighter than my face<\/span><\/p>\n

I trace the line of my legs.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

With feet that tap on, or offbeat\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

That jump to reach\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

That step closer to embrace.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I move up to my hips\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Hidden, or accentuated i<\/span>n tight jeans\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

That cover the dark skin on my knees.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I\u2019ve had hands encircle them\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Lick them and l<\/span>ook at them\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

With like, love, o<\/span>r disdain.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019ve moved them in vain\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

In ways that make me feel sexy or\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Make people laugh.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I\u2019ve seen them in the mirror\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

And how they fit or don\u2019t fit\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

With my breasts\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

That I pushed out to look bigger\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Or suffocated to fit in\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Clothes that don\u2019t fit.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I\u2019ve rubbed my skin <\/span><\/p>\n

As if the color was a stain\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Traced it to map where it came from\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Compared it to that of my loved ones.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

My arms move up to feel my face\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Where I washed away dirt,<\/span><\/p>\n

Popped pimples, and hated\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

How instead of burning,\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

It just blackens with the sun.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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 <\/p>\n

Insta: @mattie_tvc15<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

From the rigid\u00a0 Rough beige, brown\u00a0 Of ripped nails on stubbed toes   Ashy feet on rugged heels Using a finger a shade lighter than my face I trace the line of my legs.   With feet that tap on, or offbeat\u00a0 That jump to reach\u00a0 That step closer to embrace.   I move up […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2229,"featured_media":14148,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1334],"tags":[15,420],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14145"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2229"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=14145"}],"version-history":[{"count":8,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14145\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":14154,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14145\/revisions\/14154"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/14148"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=14145"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=14145"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=14145"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}