{"id":16248,"date":"2021-03-15T20:29:21","date_gmt":"2021-03-16T00:29:21","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/?p=16248"},"modified":"2021-04-05T23:00:23","modified_gmt":"2021-04-06T03:00:23","slug":"the-rose-vine-i-go-by-she","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/2021\/03\/15\/the-rose-vine-i-go-by-she\/","title":{"rendered":"the rose vine – “I Go by She”"},"content":{"rendered":"

“I Go by She”<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

I wear sunflower dresses<\/span><\/p>\n

and draw black triangles on my eyes.<\/span><\/p>\n

I love the smell of vanilla and honey<\/span><\/p>\n

and the sparkle of stars in the moonlight.<\/span><\/p>\n

So how can I blame anyone for assuming<\/span><\/p>\n

my apparent femininity equates to womanhood?<\/span><\/p>\n

I refer to myself as she not out of identity but out of\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

passivity. Of course I\u2019m a woman, I look like one.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I\u2019m not a man but I don\u2019t think I would complain<\/span><\/p>\n

if tomorrow I awoke in the body of one.<\/span><\/p>\n

Rather I think I\u2019d feel the same; a stark indifference<\/span><\/p>\n

to the very concept of my identity would not be new.<\/span><\/p>\n

Perhaps that is my identity, indifference.<\/span><\/p>\n

Because man I don\u2019t think I feel like a woman<\/span><\/p>\n

but nonbinary is reserved for short hair and androgyny.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I wonder<\/span><\/p>\n

If I cut my hair and wore loose clothes<\/span><\/p>\n

threw out my dresses and stopped wearing makeup<\/span><\/p>\n

would I feel comfortable identifying with the identity<\/span><\/p>\n

that I feel comfortable with? Would I feel comfortable\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

escaping the binary and asking to be called they?<\/span><\/p>\n

Would shedding my identity allow me to be true to it?<\/span><\/p>\n

But I love my hair, my tight clothes and flowing skirts.<\/span><\/p>\n

I enjoy my femininity yet feel disconnected from womanhood.<\/span><\/p>\n

So I don\u2019t have a clue what my preferred pronouns are,<\/span><\/p>\n

but I go by she.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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