{"id":19071,"date":"2022-02-09T09:30:35","date_gmt":"2022-02-09T14:30:35","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/?p=19071"},"modified":"2022-02-09T17:24:31","modified_gmt":"2022-02-09T22:24:31","slug":"scribble-15-winter","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/2022\/02\/09\/scribble-15-winter\/","title":{"rendered":"Scribble #15: Winter"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\u201c<\/span>I only can see myself skating around the truth who I am,\u201d<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

Self-discovery at college is as terrifying as it is liberating. I was not prepared for how difficult it would be to decide who I want my friends to be when I am not even sure who I want to be yet. After this month\u2019s below-freezing temperatures and last week\u2019s snowstorm, I can relate even more strongly to today\u2019s song: <\/span>Winter<\/span><\/i> by Tori Amos.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBut I know\u2026 the ice is getting thin.\u201d<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

Generally speaking, I am confident in myself and I like who I am. Even so, I\u2019ve realized that recently I haven’t been as patient and forgiving with myself as I should be. Holding myself to a high standard is part of who I am. It is something that I think is great about me, but I realize that sometimes the standard I hold myself to is not realistic and I end up actually holding myself back.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cWhen you gonna make up your mind?\u201d<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

Though I have been trying to figure myself out throughout my college experience so far, I have never been so confident in the people I have chosen to be my friends. Not only did I choose them, but they chose me back. We see potential in each other. They\u2019re my supporters, my inspirations, and my confidants, as I am for them.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cWhen you gonna love you as much as I do?\u201d<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

I will navigate this life of self-discovery with the help of my newfound friends. I will let go to the best of my ability and allow myself to grow without putting pressure on myself. I will embrace the uncertainty and the change and my decisions. Most importantly, I will be gentle with myself. This is a learning process, and I have no right to expect myself to be perfect. I am not ready to make every decision about who I want to be (nor should I be), but I am ready to make one decision. It is time for me to decide to love myself the way that I am loved by my family and friends.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201c’Cause things are gonna change so fast.\u201d<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

Listen to <\/span>Winter<\/span><\/i> here: <\/span>https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=qw431cX0mgQ<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u201cI only can see myself skating around the truth who I am,\u201d Self-discovery at college is as terrifying as it is liberating. I was not prepared for how difficult it would be to decide who I want my friends to be when I am not even sure who I want to be yet. After this […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2242,"featured_media":17266,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19071"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2242"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=19071"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19071\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":19096,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19071\/revisions\/19096"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/17266"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=19071"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=19071"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=19071"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}