{"id":19614,"date":"2022-03-16T09:30:50","date_gmt":"2022-03-16T13:30:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/?p=19614"},"modified":"2022-03-16T00:18:18","modified_gmt":"2022-03-16T04:18:18","slug":"scribble-18-the-other","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/2022\/03\/16\/scribble-18-the-other\/","title":{"rendered":"Scribble #18: The Other"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\u201cI’ve been scratching at the surface trying to find out where the hurt is.\u201d<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

I always figured that college is a time to work on finding out who you are, but I didn\u2019t realize that that also means finding out who you aren\u2019t. I find myself second guessing myself every day, in the best – and worst – ways possible. My mind is expanding with every class I take, but sometimes, I worry that I\u2019m doing college and young-adulthood the \u201cwrong\u201d way or that I should be doing something that others seem to enjoy even though I have no interest in it. The pandemic and having to change my expectations hasn\u2019t helped.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cNow that I’m dancing with my demons, I’m making everybody nervous\u201d<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

This leads me to fear that I\u2019m missing out on something, but it\u2019s a strange sort of feeling. I fear I am missing out on things I do not want to do and aspects of a stereotypical college culture that I don\u2019t have any interest in. Everyone has their own path and everyone is unique. Just because I see something in pop culture and on social media that some of my peers seem to enjoy doesn\u2019t mean there\u2019s anything wrong with me not being interested in it.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cI have to walk the path in front of me ’cause I’m not one for following,\u201d<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

The truth is, there will always be times when I am anxious. There will always be times when I feel like I don\u2019t belong, and there is nothing wrong with me feeling upset, lost, and lonely in those moments. Just because I feel like I can\u2019t relate to a single conversation doesn\u2019t mean that I need to change so that I can relate, and it definitely doesn\u2019t mean that there\u2019s anything wrong with me. I have to remember that for every conversation that leaves me feeling left out, I\u2019ve had one that makes me feel at home and feel like myself. Why change who I am to become someone I don\u2019t even want to be?<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cAnd I will not apologize or lie for who I am.\u201d<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

Listen to <\/span>The Other<\/span><\/i>\u00a0(by Tonight Alive) here: <\/span>https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=HibSsNbCUn4<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u201cI’ve been scratching at the surface trying to find out where the hurt is.\u201d I always figured that college is a time to work on finding out who you are, but I didn\u2019t realize that that also means finding out who you aren\u2019t. I find myself second guessing myself every day, in the best – […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2242,"featured_media":17266,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19614"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2242"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=19614"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19614\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":19628,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19614\/revisions\/19628"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/17266"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=19614"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=19614"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=19614"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}