{"id":24098,"date":"2023-11-01T23:31:20","date_gmt":"2023-11-02T03:31:20","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/?p=24098"},"modified":"2023-11-01T23:31:21","modified_gmt":"2023-11-02T03:31:21","slug":"s3-scribble-4-closer-to-fine","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/2023\/11\/01\/s3-scribble-4-closer-to-fine\/","title":{"rendered":"S3 Scribble #4: Closer to Fine"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full is-resized\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" width=\"772\" height=\"864\" src=\"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/11\/Screenshot-2023-11-01-at-11.27.49-PM.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-24101\" style=\"aspect-ratio:0.8935185185185185;width:487px;height:auto\" srcset=\"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/11\/Screenshot-2023-11-01-at-11.27.49-PM.png 772w, https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/11\/Screenshot-2023-11-01-at-11.27.49-PM-268x300.png 268w, https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/11\/Screenshot-2023-11-01-at-11.27.49-PM-768x860.png 768w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 772px) 100vw, 772px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>\u201cAnd I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains, I looked to the children, I drank from the fountains,\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It\u2019s the first of November of my senior year. \u201cWhat\u2019s next?\u201d I\u2019ve been asked, and the truth is, I\u2019m not quite sure. I just submitted yet another application that may or may not determine the course of my future, and I\u2019ve been riddled with self-doubt (which is surprising and disorienting, because I tend to be confident and decently sure of myself). Accepting the fact that there are many things out of my control at the moment is a challenge. Even without the self-doubt and the other responsibilities that school and life entail, the fact that I don\u2019t have any idea what my life will be like in just one year from now is something I must grapple with constantly.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>\u201cThere&#8217;s more than one answer to these questions pointing me in a crooked line.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But, really, <em>must<\/em> I grapple with it? The Indigo Girls\u2019 \u201cCloser to Fine\u201d reminds me that in order to be happy, I need to let go of the unknown. I can try my best to prepare myself for the future, but knowing what will happen is simply impossible. Therefore, the best I can do is let myself enjoy where I am now and enjoy where life takes me. I don\u2019t need to grapple \u2013 I need to accept that there are unknowable things, and then I need to let them go.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>\u201cAnd the less I seek my source for some definitive,\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>When one door closes, another door opens, and, so far, things have worked out. Maybe not in the way that I had hoped or anticipated that they would, but things have worked out nonetheless. It is not my job to worry about what is beyond my control. It\u2019s my job to take advantage of opportunities &#8211; and create opportunities &#8211; for myself. It\u2019s my job to enjoy the ride.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>\u201cCloser I am to fine.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Listen to <em>Closer to Fine <\/em>by The Indigo Girls here: <a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=1HWV5hq4Bh8\">https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=1HWV5hq4Bh8<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u201cAnd I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains, I looked to the children, I drank from the fountains,\u201d It\u2019s the first of November of my senior year. \u201cWhat\u2019s next?\u201d I\u2019ve been asked, and the truth is, I\u2019m not quite sure. I just submitted yet another application that may or may not determine [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2242,"featured_media":23657,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24098"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2242"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=24098"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24098\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":24104,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24098\/revisions\/24104"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/23657"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=24098"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=24098"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=24098"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}