{"id":25623,"date":"2024-04-23T11:11:00","date_gmt":"2024-04-23T15:11:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/?p=25623"},"modified":"2024-04-23T10:37:58","modified_gmt":"2024-04-23T14:37:58","slug":"asoss-24-snooze","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/artsatmichigan.umich.edu\/ink\/2024\/04\/23\/asoss-24-snooze\/","title":{"rendered":"aSoSS 24 | Snooze"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p><strong>[referring to how late she woke up] I can only have one bad day so I have to be on top of it today.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>Well, I\u2019m young and stupid, so I\u2019ve got more time to waste.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>BMV, 6:30PM, 2\/28\/2024<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:30px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>two voices, mine and yours.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>&#8212;<em>and why should i?<\/em> you&#8217;re chasing your dreams while i&#8217;m chasing my tail, spinning in circles, dizzy from embarrassment. <em>too proud to look you in the eye<\/em>. it was always a game, wasn&#8217;t it? <em>get off the playground.<\/em> swing and miss, face-up, the sky salting the wound with its mosaic of stars&#8211;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>my alarm rings. every morning i notice how there is only one voice, how it only speaks when spoken to. i don&#8217;t know who wins; i never do. if a thought had a mouth, would it scream?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>I need melatonin to sleep. If I don\u2019t take melatonin, I get nightmares.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Mosher-Jordan Dining Hall, 6:30PM, 3\/29\/2024<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:30px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>i am greeted by the clothes deforming like plastic in the sun, an uncanny valley of furniture molded around the faces, your face, no face at all. i unbutton my shirt and count eight scars splayed across my chest, as if a creature had climbed the ladder of my ribcage from the inside and latched on to my heart. i feel the irregular beats now, a warning that my pulse does not pump alone. i make my breakfast in silence and look at the window. i see a single spider sitting in its fractured web, watching. waiting.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>I\u2019ve made so many mistakes since having him\u2026 he\u2019s five months old and doesn\u2019t like to sleep, which means I don\u2019t get to sleep either.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>AADL Downtown, 12:00PM, 4\/20\/2024<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:30px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>it seems humans are born with the innate sense of death. sometimes i equate the resistance to sleep as the resistance to death and i wonder whether a child would make the connection as well. we cannot recast reality in our sleep; we cannot extract truth from our visions. our dreams lie with the size of a single breath. perhaps death pays a visit every night and pulls against the thread of the universe. <em>pick a card, pick a side, pick your brain. <\/em>the dice clatter against the floor, but when i open my eyes there is nothing there. we are all alone in the night, sleeping among the silence and the spiderwebs.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>[referring to how late she woke up] I can only have one bad day so I have to be on top of it today. 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