When I finally have the chance to breathe 

I can’t stop thinking about 

The way you see me 

Inverting previous admonitions

From condescension to care 

I wonder if I too am inverted 

If the miles between us 

Cloud your words 

Making fickle mist with every breath

You see me

Painted like a desert 

Wrapping on the edges 

Yelling to you

As you turn away

You got tired of hearing me

You used to reach inside

And hold me

And now you don’t even watch

You listen to my ramblings with slight acknowledgments

And when the slightest words catch your attention 

You turn away

Strange Fruit After Billie Holiday

Your limbs are tendrils 

Flailing in protest offbeat

to the beat of hearts 


  to understand

  your speech. 


Seek the neverending sending of messages that

teach upstanding misunderstanding of 


Your hair and why it crinkles

So early after water stipples hit 




Cells that work against it 

Turn you thick to sense it 



The wind


Your reaction

Almost human


always brazen to the thought of the world we’re in. 



I must be comfortable in the chaos. 

My nerves don’t control me

My worries don’t control me

Other people’s perceptions, 

Do not have to affect me.

I can choose when I yield to my sadness.

I’m prepared I’m capable,

I’m trying my best.

I do not need to accept judgment. 

I can overcome unsatisfied desires. 

Do not weep over lost time 

Give yourself grace