The Buried Beauty of Butoh Dance

You are standing still. Close your eyes. Imagine an ant crawling over the bones of your left foot. It finds a nest in the space between your toes. Then, more of them appear. They surround your feet, tracing their shape…and then, they start the ascent. Trailing up your legs, between them, up your belly. One tickles the thin skin on your wrist. You swat it away only to find two more have replaced. You are swarmed with them. This has become a full-on infestation. The ants with their furry feet and beady abdomens journey across the map of your face, your hilly nose, into the depths of your ears, until they disappear into your hair.

Feeling a bit disturbed? This, says the dance instructor, is how you should always feel when you perform Butoh.

This semester, I’m taking Asian 200 – Introduction to Japanese Civilization. It is just that – an overview of each major period of Japanese history from the Heian Era to the Meiji to World War 2 and today. As we near the end of the semester, we have just begun our discussion on the 20th century. Because an entire course could be dedicated to World War 2 and Japan’s role in it, we have focused more on the effects of the war on the people, the economy, and the arts.

One of the most innovative arts to come out of the post-war era in Japan was the avant-garde dance called Butoh (which literally translates to “dance which steps on a political party” or any dance that is not sanctioned by the Japanese government). 

Hijikata Tatsumi performing Butoh; Image via artistsspace.com

Created by Hijikata Tatsumi and Ohno Kazuo in 1959, butoh strove to become the new Japanese dance, which broke away from both Western modern dance and traditional Japanese dances. Especially after the bombings of Hiroshima and Nagasaki, there wasn’t a time when nationalism was more necessary to unite the country after tragedy. Butoh was the catalyst for young Japanese artists and intellectuals of the early 60’s to reject the status that Japan had been reduced to by Western superpowers. They wanted to subvert the sense of “alienation,  dehumanization, and loss of self-identity” ( Klein, Susan Blakeley. Ankoku Butoh. Ithaca: Cornell East Asia Papers, 1988: p. 9) that had been assigned to them.

Through the performance of Butoh, the dancers embrace a grotesque beauty – where they often make their expressions as revolting as possible, yet move across the stage with a paradoxical grace of controlled spasms. In a way, the more alienated and dehumanized the dancers become on stage, the richer the social critique.

The emaciated (and often naked) bodies of the dancers are covered in a thick white powder, highlighting ribs muscles, and especially the facial features. The dancers are enrobed in a mist macabre and their movements further unsettle the audience. We watched a few videos in class and had to define our emotional response to them.

Classmates answered “confused,” “creeped out,” “disturbed.” I think this comes from how weak the dancers appear (which of course is all an act). We feel awkward watching extreme suffering (even if it is fake) before us. The dancers become hyper-human in their ability to decompose and waste away. They become an alternative form of the humanity we thought we knew.

But how do they do it? Understanding that such a foreign dance would be difficult to talk about without experiencing it firsthand, my professor brought in a Butoh artist/scholar named Dr. Katherine Mezur to teach my class real exercises that are used in professional Butoh troupe lessons. We were instructed to wear loose, moveable clothing and white, cotton socks (though it was ambiguous which was more important: the whiteness or the cotton-ness). We were given the option to sit out if we ever grew uncomfortable. While I promised myself that I wouldn’t let myself sit out, I was pretty sure that at least one person in our class of strangers would feel shy or embarrassed, and gratefully accept the role of observer.

But no! Everyone participated. One of the first exercises after getting loosened up was the immersive imagination scene I referred to earlier: the one with the bugs. Because we had our eyes closed, we were all embarking on our own experience, yet we shared the energy of everyone in the room. We then learned a shuffling step, which provides the base for all Butoh movement. Moving around in the same space, we had to be aware of each other’s persons. We became each other’s obstacles. To complicate things even more Dr. Mezur would yell out an animal or a kind of material (glass, steel, wood) and we’d have to internalize these properties and incorporate them into our basic movement. This exercise was to teach us to realize the materiality of the body.

The most bizarre, and most striking, element of the Butoh dance is the facial expression. Dr. Mezur taught us to roll our eyes back (Exorcism-style),  cover our teeth with our lips, open our mouth, and draw in your neck like a gobbling turkey.

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Luckily, everyone else’s eyes are turned up to the ceiling too, so no one could make fun of how ridiculous we looked.

Not only did I feel extremely ugly, I felt an internal pain from imitating the appearance of suffering. And that’s just the cherry on top of the revolting body image of Butoh. It’s about experiencing all aspects of being human: the good, the bad, and the ugly. The dancers of Butoh seem to say: ‘Not only are we humans who die and kill and begrudge and heartbreak and destroy. We are also humans who can turn the scariest, saddest, unexplainable parts of our stories and create something hauntingly stunning and beautiful and emotional. We connect with you through a shared fear that we might not make it through this performance. But we always do.’

The Singing Engineer

When I first started college I was a musician, not an engineer. I had little to no confidence in my ability to succeed within the College of Engineering, and only had applied the year before because my parents made me. It was the summer before junior year when I first began to think that not only could I be an engineer, but that I wanted to be one and it was my junior year when I finally found my home within the College of Engineering. That summer I had my first of three internships with BP America at the Whiting Oil Refinery in Indiana. It was that summer when I saw that there was more engineering than exams and homework sets that take a minimum 10 hours to complete. It was there that I saw that the work I do as engineer does not just effect the people I work or the company’s bottom line, but that it can impact each and every person living in Midwest whether they realize it or not. When I returned to school in the fall I was invited to join the EECS Honor Society HKN and I can easily say that electing was one of the best decisions of my college career. Finally, the engineering campus was no longer just a place I attended lectures awkwardly avoiding eye contact and constantly feeling out of place, it became a second home filled with friends and mentors with whom I didn’t mind pulling an occasional all nighter.

In the past five years I have a lifetimes worth of experiences and opportunities which would have been impossible to obtain anywhere other than the University of Michigan. I have performed in over 25 operas, musicals, plays and short films, served as Treasurer and then President of UMGASS (the oldest student run Gilbert and Sullivan Society in North America), attended the Petroleum and Chemical Industry Conference as a winner of the Myron Zucker Travel Grant, written a 20 page engineering analysis of the mechanical doll Olympia from Offenbach’s opera The Tales of Hoffman, built an audio effects possessor, was a preliminary winner of the School of Music Theatre and Dance’s concerto competition and spoke to over 2,000 children around the state of Michigan about why STEM matters as a local title holder for the Miss America Organization.

I began college unsure of who I was and what I wanted to do with my life and was exceptionally lucky to have grown under the careful guidance of the faculty and staff here at the University of Michigan. While it was never easy, as we begin our careers we have an obligation to the community which fostered our growth. We have an obligation to those who feel that they don’t belong and who don’t believe that they can be successful. Freshman year that was me, that was my story and I fought each and every day to earn my place at the University, just as every other graduate. It is now our turn lead by example, expand beyond what is comfortable and prove to ourselves and to the world around us that we have earned the right to call ourselves Michigan Wolverines.

The Way I See It: Thoughts on Albums Part 2

In a much earlier blog post, I talked about how I feel about the title “The Best Album of All Time.” In some ways, this is an arbitrary title to give a creative piece of work, especially considering how many millions upon millions upon millions of albums that have been made. But it also frames the question in a really unique way. Because beyond asking what your favorite song is, or even what your favorite album is, it’s just slightly more. It may not necessarily be your favorite, but it’s what you consider the best. It’s personal, it reveals your standards, and it reveals who you are, in some weird kind of way.

So this week, I want to talk about what I consider to be The Best Album So Far, since, as we all know, new and exciting music is being created everyday. In some ways, it’s my favorite album, and in others, I just consider it to be a musical masterpiece. And yet, I know that it’s flawed, it’s not perfect, and it’s not a widely shared opinion. But it’s mine, and I want to talk about it, and this is my blog, so ha I win.

Phoenix’s 2013 concept-album-but-also-not-really Bankrupt! probably flew under most radars that year. It’s the year Vampire Weekend released Modern Vampires of New York and Arctic Monkeys released AM, and although a quick search on albumoftheyear.org (I didn’t even know this existed until today) finds a compilation of generally favorable, even highly praised reviews of it, even the slightly more than general indie band might find it hard to remember Bankrupt! because…well…Phoenix was old news. Although Phoenix at this point has been around for years and years and released multiple albums, their claim to fame was Wolfgang Amadeus Phoenix (another equally brilliant album), along with 1901 that I knew from the car commercial but I’m sure indie fans knew from other things. So then Bankrupt! was, in essence, that dreaded sophomore album.

And to be honest, the first time I heard the lead single “Entertainment,” I was not impressed. As a single, “Entertainment” is catchy, upbeat, fun, synth-heavy indie-pop. It’s likable, it’s pleasing, and made for the general indie population to consume and enjoy. But it’s not in any way brilliant, and it does not speak for the album as a whole.

So what is Bankrupt!? I call it a concept album despite the fact that the only concept seems to be non-concept. And yet, that’s what, to me, makes it so brilliant. When listening to the album all the way through, Bankrupt! changes styles at least 5 times, if not more. It never becomes content with the pop-infused sound of “Entertainment,” coincidentally the first song on the album. It can’t stay there, because that’s not the ending, but the beginning. The album constantly reinvents itself in a way that the listener cannot anticipate nor be completely satisfied with itself. And yet, in direct contradiction to that, none of the tracks feel jarring, or out of place, even when the songs get darker, slower, or vaguer. The album navigates the changes so smoothly that the listener barely even notices these changes.

I have listened to Bankrupt!, as a complete album, well over 100 times. Sometimes, I do listen to individual songs, and I had a phase where I did that. But then I started realizing that when I started with an individual song, even if it’s a few songs into the album, I kept wanting to listen to the rest of the album, rather than switching to some other artist or even another song by Phoenix.

And it’s clear that Phoenix intended the album to be listened to as a whole, as each song flows into the next, often playing the melody for the next song before the previous ends. Which is why it’s easy to see why “Entertainment” failed as a single in some ways – it was never meant to be a single. It was meant to be the introduction to Bankrupt!, with the rest of the album to speak for it.

I also personally love this album because the lyrics are just real enough to matter, and just absurd enough to be indie, always keeping you guessing. I also love the musicality, the way the music sometimes overpowers the vocals, like you’re hearing it live every time. I love everything about this album.

And for some weird, bizarre reason, I find it to be the best album of all time. I come back to it, again and again, and I’m always surprised by it. And that, to me, is enough to qualify it.

So then…I’ll ask again. What’s your best album of all time?

The Art of the Political Cartoon

It’s an election year, and that means everyone is going mad with political fever. All of your more vocal friends and family members are probably sharing thoughts and opinions on every social media platform and in real life. As we all know, this can be warranted, or not. These people may be blowing up your newsfeed with political gifs, videos, memes, articles, or anything else that could possibly relate to national or international politics, and you really have no way to avoid it. Sure, their opinions are important, but isn’t the same edited gif of Bernie Sanders scaring Donald Trump at a rally getting a little old? (Probably not; it’s always hilarious.)

An gif of Donald Trump speaking at a presidential rally that someone has edited to include Bernie Sanders sneaking up on Donald Trump and then Donald Trump getting scared and angry at Bernie Sanders.

It’s time to take a look at the meme’s ugly step cousin, the political art of yesteryear, the cartoons you see in your parents’ real newspaper when you’re home for the weekend that don’t feature a fat orange cat that hates Mondays. It’s time to re-appreciate the political cartoon.

A political cartoon of the Statue of Liberty's flame in rainbow.

Political cartoons take the extremes and exaggerations and turn them into messages for people to look at and interpret. Like all art, political cartoons are subjective, and the viewer will always bring his or her own biases to the cartoon. Unlike all art, however, the political cartoon asks for heightened biases in its very nature. People have strong opinions on politics that, more often than not, do not change. Political cartoonists do everything they can to use their art to encourage discussion from both supporters and opponents, knowing full well that not everyone who sees their art will agree with or understand what they are saying.

A political cartoon of the French flag hugging the Belgium flag with the date 13 November beneath the French flag the date 22 March underneath the Belgium flag.

I’ve chosen the three political cartoons I’ve included in this post to highlight the differences and similarities found in many cartoons of this nature. Each of these cartoons takes a current event and interprets it in an artful manner so the event is easy to identify and understand. Sometimes cartoons have lots of words, but most limit text as much as possible, letting the images speak for themselves. Words can add to the image, but even without words, these cartoons speak to an audience in a clear and concise manner.

A political cartoon of Native Americans on Plymouth rock building a wall in front of pilgrims arriving on a boat with the caption, "They say they're building a wall because too many of us enter illegally and won't learn their language or assimilate into their culture..."

You don’t have to agree with them, but political cartoons are an extremely efficient way to make a strong statement using nothing but the powerful tools of art and wit. A political cartoonist has limited space to say what he or she wants to say; yet somehow, they say it.

So, this election year pay attention to what the artists of the world are saying. Just like those friends and family members who seem to just go on and on, political cartoonists have thoughts and opinions that are important and worth listening to. They just say them in a different way.

Video Game Music

Last semester, one of my friends asked me to take a video game music class with him. I was hesitant at first, but I soon decided adding a two-credit course couldn’t hurt. Now I’m no musical savant. For although I may listen to music, ranging from pop music to classical, I’m unable to, in a learned fashion, explain why my musical choices are excellent or worthy of your praise.

Interestingly, before this class, I would occasionally listen to film scores but never before had I considered music from video games. Of course I knew the legends of musical scores like the Mario theme, but what of the effect of music on games? What about how themes are constructed? Leitmotifs? What are those? All these questions!

Through the semester, all was made clear. We learned about how the original sounds were created on limited hardware, how video game scores handled the problems that came with looping, and we spoke with current video game composers like Austin Wintory (flOw and Journey). Speaking with industry professionals was an absolute treat. Although I’m not an aspiring composer, I sat there, thinking, “I wish this happened in other classes.” There was something rather candid about talking to a giant head projected onto a screen in the basement lecture hall at the art museum. It was a conversation, not some form of high profile celebrity interview. We learned about the normalcy these composers came from. How they were just musicians who managed to get involved in a growing market.

“A friend told me I should try video game music.”

“I was composing music for commercials at the time when I discovered I could make video game music.”

The video game is probably the most immersive medium available to us today. As technology advances, it would seem immersion is the one thing that is continuously amplified. Another immersive medium, movies, incorporated music, photography, and writing in a way that was new. Then video games included another dimension, the active participation of the audience while also including new technologies. Amidst all this, it becomes harder to focus on one particular element amidst the clustered form. But perhaps it is necessary, in such a complicated form, to focus on one thing and build from that point. Wintory told us that Journey was developed based on his composed music. The levels and the animation, the lighting and the gameplay mechanics, all of these things revolved around what Wintory was composing for the game. Oddly enough, by leading with one element, everything else forms in a cohesive manner. All it takes is one recommendation, and you enter into a complicated world that just clicks.

Another aspect of the course I enjoyed, although I didn’t partake in the exercise, was the chance to compose music for an EECS class that had developed their own video games that semester. Now I understand that organizing interdisciplinary opportunities is a logistical nightmare for professors. However, when it happens, it’s priceless.

I cannot say that I’ve started playing more games because of the class. But I’ve started to revisit nostalgic video game scores. More importantly, what I learned about the processes of composing video game music has affected my approach to writing as well.

No medium seems to be alone nowadays.

A Brain Crowded with Ideas and Absent of Focus

Today’s blog post is going to be pretty modest because I’m not sure what to write about. I have ideas swirling around in my mind, and tons of things I could write about, yet I’m somehow coming up empty for one main thing I want to delve into. See, I even included a picture of an empty notepad, shamelessly picked from a cursory Google Images search, to represent this post. Oh well. I’m just going to touch on some random things I’ve been up to and thinking about.

  1. Recently my high school closed down, so I’m trying to tackle a big piece about what the school meant to me. I started writing it today and I was originally actually planning to use that as my post today. But I realized how hard it was to sum up four years, especially because those years were so huge for me—they were like a whole other life. It’s strange to think about those years as only a fifth of my 20-year life. It seems more like 45%, with college being another 35% and my pre-high school years being the 20% that I don’t remember as well and can’t analyze as deeply.
  1. God, journaling is great. I’m perpetually behind in journaling because I write such verbose descriptions and it takes so long, but I’ve taken some time lately to catch up a little, and it’s been so rewarding. Seeing those pages full of text is nice to begin with, and having my stories out there in writing feels cathartic, even when they’re relatively mundane stories.

Whenever I’m feeling really bad about something, whatever it is, writing it out helps. It makes my emotions feel clearer and more logical. It helps me make sense of whatever confusing mix of emotions I might be feeling, and I’ve had a lot of that lately. As unhealthy as this sounds, I think I might start focusing more on journaling even if it means spending less time studying. It’s worth it for my mental health.

  1. I’ve been thinking about one of the most differences between TV/film/novels and reality: reality doesn’t have as much big confrontations. That’s not to say there isn’t conflict in real life, of course, and in the right hands, the smallest of conflicts can become enthralling in writing or onscreen. It’s more to say that in real life, there are little simmering tensions and passive-aggressions, whereas movies use big, dramatic confrontations where all the emotions come out at once. Characters are dramatically brought together with grand romantic gestures and first kisses in the rain. They’re brought apart by cataclysmic shouting matches.

And sure, maybe I’m only describing the most melodramatic, cliché devices, but still, even the best stories have to fabricate big confrontations out of necessity. It’s just how things are; no one wants to see a romance movie where two best friends have feelings for each other but literally never act on them, instead just secretly pining away for each other, being jealous of each other’s partners, and slowly accepting that they’re never going to do anything about it out of fear that it’ll ruin the friendship. (I guess you could point to the general critical success of “Drinking Buddies” to prove me wrong, and good point, although I found the ending of that movie lacking for this precise reason: there’s no catharsis, and it doesn’t act on that building up of sexual tension.)

Good stories make a promise to the audience at the beginning—“this is going to blow up eventually”—and fulfill those promises. Aside from radical stories that purposely set out to subvert expectations, stories don’t tend to be set on ‘simmer’ the entire time. There has to be change.

I was thinking about this because of various times in my life when a confrontation seemed inevitable. To improve a certain friendship, I could’ve called out a friend for something shitty they did. To move past an object of my infatuation, I could’ve told her my feelings and accepted the result, whichever way it went. But so many times in my life, I’ve eschewed those big confrontations. Sometimes it probably would’ve been healthier to have those confrontations—but movies paint them as happening so much more often than they actually do. And honestly, sometimes I’m glad I didn’t confront somebody about something. Confrontation isn’t inherently the right choice. As unpleasant as it sounds, sometimes burying your feelings and letting them shrivel away can be the right choice. Especially as you get older and it becomes necessary to be a little fake once in a while.