Evolving Emotions: You

Everything reminds me of you.

 

The faces whirl by in a sea of familiarity

I think I recognize your smile,

your walk,

your presence

I don’t.

 

A laugh echoes down the strange hallway

It settles into my ears swiftly and soundly

But it’s not you.

 

Tears flood my eyes in your absence.

The comfort that held me is no longer.

Is home really home anymore?

Is life what it was before?

No,

But I miss you.

 

I miss you and your

Charming intricacies

Audacious interests

Burning desires

The words you gifted others

The humility woven in your soul

 

Nobody can compare

And content will come

But for now

Everything reminds me of you.

 

This is the first poem I wrote when I arrived at this university. Walking by new people was like getting shot. There were a lot of tears. Everything was so new and so familiar all at once. It did get better in time, though.

Evolving Emotions: Squirrel Staring Contest

A bushy tail

Flourishing in the bitter wind

Curiously Driven

Hopelessly Eager

 

Frantic paws

Working through

The solid Earth

Toward a humble prize

 

A heart beating rapidly

Blood flooding the body

Lungs accelerating

In the face of something new

 

A charming face

Greets the beady eyes

The new creature crouches

Waiting

 

A stare interlocks them

Each afraid to move

 

Crunch

The leaves sound

The being shifts

 

Away rushes the animal

Up a tree

To refuge

To a world unknown

 

To the person

Crouching among the leaves

Striking disappointment

Slapped across their face

 

Evolving Emotions: Regretful “I”

I

Question her lack of

Reciprocation. I made a

Declaration about my

Intentions and yet her dull

Reaction leaves me in my

Emotions. Is further

Action necessary? Or should I stir in my

Ambitions and keep

Caution close to the chest? For the

Duration that I remain

Fixation is all I know.

Rumination about what could have been if I had

Conviction in my speech. What could have been of this

Situation if I had told her? My only

Communication was a pitiful

“I…”.

 

Evolving Emotions: Overwhelming Prospects

Smothered in paper

Opening and closing

 

My laptop and textbook

Ubiquitous

Cups of coffee surround me

Highly caffeinated, sleep deprived students

 

Talk and walk quickly

Obviously overwhelmed and

 

Doing all they can

On the path to graduation…

***

Stumbling upon an

Open space

 

Magnificent newness

Unknown to me

Cautiously approaching what is

Hardly familiar

 

Too many places

Objects

 

Sights to behold

Endless

Exploration to embark on

***

Sorrowful words

Over who I could have been

 

Mulling over who I could be

Unbridled

Creation

Happening now

 

To become

Obsolete is likely

 

But to become

Extraordinary would be spectacular.

So much to do. So much to see. So much to be. How beautifully unfortunate.

Evolving Emotions: The Inventor’s Mind 

Majestic but plain

Concrete but finicky

Mysterious but disclosed

 

Triumphant yet bittersweet

Crazed yet sane

 

Wholesomeness twisted

Into a contortion of the purest will

 

What is it that you want from me?

A craving that torments your inner satisfaction

 

A sadistic masterpiece

Of enrapturing composition

 

Tweaked by the mind

Solidified in the soul

Written on the tongue

Etched in the heart

 

A chase amidst insanity

Within the mind

Barriers to the complete

The creation

 

Each intricately aligned

Precisely where intended

For the eye to digest

And for the mouth to gasp in disbelief

 

The beauty in perfect imperfection

Synonymous antonyms

Arranged for the insane guest

Amidst a chase towards insanity