~Sappy Daze~ Day 19

An Unfortunate Cookie

The only fortunes my family is okay with wasting are the fortune cookies we 
receive after we pay the bill at a Chinese restaurant. I crush them as much 
as I can until the plastic bag it’s in pops. I take out the slip of paper 
with the red ink that stamps empty promises accompanied by lucky numbers 
that were never lucky enough to win me the lottery. Then I toss the cookie 
into the decorative koi pond. I have more fun feeding them than feeding myself. 

- Sappy

Capturing Campus: Dichotomous Nothing

dichotomous nothing

the air bleeds 

honey cough syrup

stirred by a Southern wind

winding ribbons around the soul

symphonies around suffering

boxed up in pairs

sweet like pears

the taste of bitters on my tongue

lick the surface of starving minds 

tired bones buried 

deep

in the earth 

dormant dead and dusted 

dreaming of something better

than sallow skin 

bone marrow chipping in

to make days of dichotomous nothing

will there ever be something

~Sappy Daze~ Day 18

Serenity

I’m grateful that a piano can 
absorb ugly and form beauty.

My hands sink into the weighted 
keys, my foot onto the pedal.
It’s cold and hard to the touch 
but smooth and glossy.

It endures my beatings and rage, 
a secret only we share, impossible 
to expose. & by the end, the weight 
on my chest has left me.

- Sappy

Capturing Campus: I’ll meet you there

Content Warning: Mentions of suicide, abusive relationships

I’ll meet you there

I’ll climb down to hell

with its flat plains and dry heat

to reach you 

not to save you

but to die there with you

I’ll swallow what I’m drowning in

and find you at the bottom

a swollen face

apart from vitality

I’ll fill a bathtub to the lip

feed the wire three feet

into the socket

on the other side

of bubbles and brutal force

track my end in beats of five

on the railroad

until the engine begs

and I spill open

on the grass

I’ll kick my feet

to tighten the rope

a necklace just for you

a party favor

that never loosens

I’ll host the funeral service

an open casket

for all to see

a blackened pit

and the soul

you never took from me

~Sappy Daze~ Day 17

From A Poor Secret Admirer Probably 

I’m determined to become rich 
with loving memories of you and I.

Unlike money, love can’t be measured, 
so prove you love me 
with a savings account 
of romantic adventures:

Front-row seats to a symphony 
of your snores and whispers. 

A limited edition perfume 
of your morning breath. 

A proposal so sweet 
it’s topped off with a ring pop. 

A honeymoon lavishly decorated 
with your goofy smile.

Yes, I confess I’m a gold digger. 
I’m greedy to live a broke life with unbroken love.

If you’re okay with that, 
won’t you be my lover, 
my clearance aisle breadwinner?

- Sappy