Evolving Emotions: Not Very Merry

Why must the numbness set in?

Amidst the bountiful wreaths

The warm greetings

And a fireplace to match

Creeping into my mind

Infiltrating my thoughts

Manipulating my chest

Bleeding from my mouth

The eyes dull

The limbs lose concentration

The body stills

A blankness overwhelms

Focus settles

On the gleaming whiteness

Of the open air

Crispness envelops

The winter scene

Of snowy scapes

And a body on its surface

An icy chill works its way into the soul

There is no struggle

No escape

The bitter cold sets in

Solidifying the monstrous mind within

No matter.

Why?

As the children make angels in the snow,

The families rejoice in melodious activity,

And the merriment of all relaxes the world,

Am I here

On this Earth

Without a joy in my heart?

No matter.