Coping couplets

 

I will write a poem without pain

Despite crying disdain for inflicting it’s stain

 

Or feeling its sting while afflicted by shame

Day by day seeping into a daze

 

My suffering is minimal in many ways

If one is worse I should be able 

 

To lift myself from this haze

I will write a poem without pain

 

Dancing lazily in the game

For I am not living this life in vain

Another love lie

I held you tightly so you covered my eyes

Blindside me from the sight of your voice

Lips moving softly as I tremble at their sound 

 

I wanted you 

Wrapped your head in my arms held it to my stomach

Cried while watching you smile- 

 

We are posed 

Here standing in levels 

But I am still underneath you 

 

Pulsing to the breath of your touch 

Loudly to the sound of your name 

Painting myself in you

Is naming me small diminishing my power 

Am I wrong to be flattered 

You’ve done nothing 

I don’t think 

You don’t deserve scrutiny or skepticism but 

I’m searching for someone in me to tell me if myself is with you 

If when we speak we are on the same page 

If the lines of possibilities that scroll through my head 

Match anything that lies in yours 

Evolving Emotions: Not Very Merry

Why must the numbness set in?

Amidst the bountiful wreaths

The warm greetings

And a fireplace to match

 

Creeping into my mind

Infiltrating my thoughts

Manipulating my chest

Bleeding from my mouth

 

The eyes dull

The limbs lose concentration

The body stills

 

A blankness overwhelms

Focus settles

On the gleaming whiteness

Of the open air

 

Crispness envelops

The winter scene

Of snowy scapes

And a body on its surface

 

An icy chill works its way into the soul

There is no struggle

No escape

The bitter cold sets in

Solidifying the monstrous mind within

 

No matter.

 

Why?

As the children make angels in the snow,

The families rejoice in melodious activity,

And the merriment of all relaxes the world,

 

Am I here

On this Earth

Without a joy in my heart?

 

No matter.

Sorry, this poem was a bit of a downer. I truly hope that you have a wonderful holiday season. It’s important to make the most of life and create memories with those you care about. Share those moments, laugh, soak it in. Tell people you love them and don’t be afraid to take time for yourself. Don’t be like the person in this poem!! Wishing you a joyous and healthy end of the year, EKArts.
Here’s a more cheerful one! <|:)