Sometimes

Sometimes I’m nervous walking in 

Sometimes I’m nervous walking out 

Sometimes I should be walking in 

Sometimes I should be walking out 

Sometimes I walk in when I should walk out 

Sometimes I walk out when I should walk in 

Sometimes I stop walking 

Sometimes I stop feeling when I need to heal 

Sometimes I stop healing when I need to feel

Sometimes I regret allowing myself to eat 

Sometimes I regret allowing myself to speak 

Sometimes I hate when days evaporate 

Sometimes I wait for days to fade 

Sometimes I hate myself 

Sometimes I love myself 

Sometimes I can’t tell what I am to myself

Sometimes I don’t know how to speak

Sometimes I wish I was meek  

Sometimes I wish I was weak

Sometimes I wish I was strong

Sometimes I wonder how long this can go on 

Sometimes I’m smart and I know

Sometimes I’m dumb and it shows 

Sometimes I’m right when I’m wrong

Sometimes I write wrong when I’m right

Sometimes this all feels surreal 

And Sometimes I don’t know what to feel