Capturing Campus: My Savior

TW: Sexual assault, domestic violence, toxic relationships

My Savior 

Should I bless

the carving in my chest

where your words plucked at veins

and picked at my pulp

wrap me up and keep me

Should I weep

as you leave

Would it relieve 

this bleeding heartache

aching for your nails digging in

for the impact of your fist

the raised bruises on my arms

burning between my thighs

It was always you I begged for

I wanted the hurt you’d give me

even still I do

sometimes miss you 

miss the misconception 

that I deserved this

and that kneeling on my knees

was deliverance

I begged you to deliver me 

holy and broken 

dignity like a lemon peel

I’m worth nothing to you

and I owe you your falling flesh

without a kiss

of apology or sympathy 

No goodbyes

for the liars and sadists 

because you killed me

and I saved me