Evolving Emotions: Counterfeit Consciousness

Smiling faces inundate my view

Their cheer attempts to breach my brain

Hammering away at the worry

The fears

The anxiety

To no avail

Laughter fills the air

These lungs of mine force

The artificial happiness sweeps from my breath

Choking on insincerity

The sight of fresh and falling snow

Brings enthusiasm to the limbs

Mine mimic

In an awkward sort of way

Inside a bubble

Apart from others

Left with the thoughts

That consume me

Waking and sleeping

Smiling and laughing

I’m crying now

Real

Raw

Instinctual

Yet the worries never cease

The jerking movements

The false air

The smeared smile

Faking in the pursuit

Of realness

Indeed.