When should I be concerned
That everything requires forcing
Things that brought me joy
Have turned overcast
You could call me the sky
Always grey and prepared for rain
That would be more interesting
Than the current state of my brain
When should I be concerned
That everything requires forcing
Things that brought me joy
Have turned overcast
You could call me the sky
Always grey and prepared for rain
That would be more interesting
Than the current state of my brain
After Ann Petry in conversation with “Builders” The Family by Jacob Lawrence
I see your faces and wonder
If the house they are taking down
Is yours
You seem to be walking away
As the home
The home you put your name on
Cripples piece by piece
At the hands of blue-collar workers
Like you, no choice, doing what they’re told
We see semblance of the boy’s future
Collared in blue
I wonder about the women
If their lives will be as full of hardship
As Lutie Johnson on 116th street
Or if they got off that street
And are now heading back.
I wonder if they hear me screaming.
If the sound of high Cs will still register at 440 hz-
Even if the timbre is abnormal.
I wonder if they see me bent over them.
Eyes squinting trying to predict how they move-
I wish walls knew how to turn inside out.
So that I can hear the music.
Dripping with cold sweat under a winter coat
My laptop is the train
Ticking, lifeless, from sticky fingers
My scarf is the train
Saving the seat next to me from butt sweat
My suitcase is the train
Searching for closure in a jostled enclosure
My hair is the train
Musty against my face to keep me warm
The train, such a stain to bring me home
You will get there
If you send an email to her
To connect with him
You will get there
If you go to this workshop
And talk to him
Tell him about your work
Ask a good question
You will get there
If you reach out to him
After the session
You will get there
If you stay connected with them
You will get there
If you post it
You will get there
If you tell people about
Your work
You will get there
If you speak
You will get there
You will get there
You will get there
You will get
You will get
You will get
You will
I finally found a place to stay
Standing in the mirror
My hands clutching my instrument
I am not watching for form
I am noticing
The curve of my hips
In these jeans
How my middle puckers out
Just a little
So many people
Can be here for me
But no one
Will take the time to see me