S2 Scribble #1: Irgendwie, Irgendwo, Irgendwann

“Gib mir die Hand” (Give me your hand)

Welcome back to another season of Song Scribbles! For those who are new (or just want a refresher), my name is Sydney, and I am currently a junior (Class of 2024) at the University of Michigan. I started Song Scribbles in Fall 2021 and I’m excited to continue the blog series for yet another semester! So far, it’s been a great way to reflect on each of my weeks as a college student and connect the music I listen to with the experiences I am having, and I hope to be able to look back on my blogs one day and be proud of how far I’ve come (I’ve already done it with some of my earlier blogs last year – oh, how time flies!).

“Ich bau’ dir ein Schloss aus Sand,” (I’ll build you a castle out of sand)

This past week, I received the very exciting news that I got accepted into a Winter 2023 study abroad program in Berlin, and while I’ve been a fan of a lot of 80s West Berlin music for a while now, I reached out to one of my music-savvy friends to ask if they could make me a playlist of some German music that I might not be familiar with. This week’s song, Irgendwie, Irgendwo, Irgendwann (Somehow, Somewhere, Sometime) by Nena (you’ve probably heard her song 99 Luftballons), was one of the songs included on that playlist.

“Irgendwie, irgendwo, irgendwann.” (Somehow, Somewhere, Someday)

Sometimes it is the absolute perfect time for a song to come into your life, and this was one of those times. With an incredibly busy 17-credit class schedule to keep up with (as well as my job, student organizations, social life, sleep schedule, and mental health) I have had an overwhelming start to the semester. Change tends to be challenging for me, but I know I am able to adapt to it – if I couldn’t adapt, why would I even consider studying abroad, let alone be so excited for it? 

“Die Zeit ist reif für ein bisschen Zärtlichkeit,” (The time has come for a little tenderness)

Like Nena sings, now IS the time for a little tenderness. Time to practice treating myself gently and kindly and talking to myself like I’d talk to a friend. What is important to me now is to practice self-compassion – to acknowledge that juggling so many things can be stressful and challenging. I often put a lot of pressure on myself, but I need to remember that I’m doing my best and I should be proud of myself regardless. I will adapt, I will feel more stable, I will succeed, and I will continue to do my best.

“Irgendwie, irgendwo, irgendwann.” (Somehow, Somewhere, Someday)

Listen to Irgendwie, Irgendwo, Irgendwann by Nena here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eN4LYsre_XM 

LOG-012: A RADIO STATION AT THE EDGE OF SPACE

RADIO STATION – On the edge of an abyss a radio station floats above its plunging depths, rocking gently with the sway of invisible waves. It periodically broadcasts:

“This is Station Merlin in Sector Gamma-Four with information Whiskey. Time…”

 

THE PILOT’S CABIN – The voice filters through the holes of your ears, rousing you from a dreamless sleep.

 

MIDNIGHT SUN – Or was it so dreamless? Something teases at the edges of your subconscious. A flickering lamp, tongues of firelight… 

 

AUTHORITY – Focus. These whimsies have no place in the land of the living.

 

YOU – Shake off the thought.

 

RADIO STATION – The audio briefly strengthens: “…in use Two-Two Center. Transition level…” 

 

MIDNIGHT SUN – The only beat pulsing within light-years of your craft.

 

ENCYCLOPEDIA – Radio stations such as this one serve as crucial waypoints for interstellar navigators out in the far-flung reaches of deep space. Both a lighthouse and an information service hub, it is one of many in the vast constellation of the Trans Galactic Radio Network.

 

ENDURANCE – You attempt to sit up, but a wave of lightheadedness washes over you. Visual snow. A numbness tingles in your extremities.

 

PAIN THRESHOLD – This is nothing.

 

YOU – Brace yourself against the wall and ride it out.

 

THE PILOT’S CABIN – Your sight clears. A thin thermal blanket is folded away in its cubby. A book lies on the floor below your cot, pages splayed and spine sticking up. 

 

REFLEXION – The book is right underneath where one of your arms was hanging over the cot’s edge. You must have fallen asleep while reading. 

 

YOU – Pick up the book.

 

THE GOLDEN AGE OF INTERSTELLAR EXPLORATION, A HISTORY – It’s titled “The Golden Age of Interstellar Exploration, A History.” The cover features an artistic render of a Space Bridge on the surface of some exoplanet, a set of complex arches backlit by an imploding supernova. A tiny figure stands alone before the gilded architecture with one fist raised.

 

CONCEPTUALIZATION – It’s certainly eye-catching (or excessively gaudy, depending on who you ask) for a history book.

 

RHETORIC – Not to mention the scientific inaccuracies that you itch to point out.

 

DRAMA – And pray tell, to whom, my liege? There is only an audience of three: me, myself, and I.

 

PERCEPTION (SIGHT) – The cover art is faded and the corners are worn. The author’s name is barely discernible. A strip of yellowing tape runs down the book spine. There’s something small sticking out between the pages.

 

REFLEXION – This book is well-loved, albeit old. Chronic radiation exposure and handling has dulled its colors.

 

YOU – Flip the book open.

 

THE GOLDEN AGE OF INTERSTELLAR EXPLORATION, A HISTORY – The introduction reads: “For centuries after the Space Race, interstellar travel to any extrasolar systems remained a distant fantasy. Travel and information were hard-limited by the speed of light. As conditions worsened on Earth, there was no more time for dreams. Humanity lost interest and space programs fell by the wayside in favor of tackling problems on the ground.”

 

ENCYCLOPEDIA – Until the discovery of an anomaly at the edge of the Solar System, just beyond the shadow of Pluto. 

 

PERCEPTION – Something unperceivable, only describable by the lack of it.

 

LOGIC – A scientifically inexplicable phenomenon.

 

MIDNIGHT SUN – A hole in the fabric of reality.

 

L’APPEL DU VIDE – The abyss.

 

THE GOLDEN AGE OF INTERSTELLAR EXPLORATION, A HISTORY – “…some saw it as a warning, others, a blessing. Love it, fear it, or hate it, the *manifold* undeniably reignited space interest and within a decade, numerous space probes were sent off to explore the unknown. It was a cosmic black box, but stray transmissions would leak from a localized region, enabling researchers to triangulate an approximate volume of space where the phenomenon existed.”

“The first probe to successfully cross the boundary— and return— captured images that would shake the foundations of scientific knowledge.” The words are familiar. Charming.

 

RHETORIC – Charmingly *passé*, you mean. An overreliance on pathos and quixotic visions. The author’s attempts to harness the zeitgeist of the golden age with little basis in scientific accuracy is dubious at best as an accurate portrayal of historical events.

 

EMPATHY – All the same, you once loved this book.

 

RADIO STATION –  A burst of static jolts you from your reverie. The staticky buzz is louder than before, sounding like a land-line left off the hook. 

 

PERCEPTION (HEARING) – There’s an odd pause in the automated broadcast. 

 

LOGIC – It’s not the usual end of a message.

 

RADIO STATION – “Sometimes I close my eyes…” The voice sounds the same as the automated announcer, but it’s unmistakably human, thick with emotion. 

 

EMPATHY – You can’t interpret the voice’s feeling, tinny and distorted through the static. You can only tell that it’s undeniable *human,* raw in cadence.

 

RADIO STATION – “…and for a moment, I’m back on Earth with you.” 

 

REACTION SPEED – Wait. This must be the station operator. Did he hijack the broadcast?

 

RADIO STATION – “I could feel the sunshine and taste the grainy sweetness of cornbread. It was the World Faire of ’82…” He stops. 

 

ENCYCLOPEDIA – The World Faire of ’82 was held in the Republic of Americas, over a century ago.

 

RADIO STATION – There’s a crackle of a sigh. “Except I don’t think we attended. We couldn’t afford the tickets.”

“Things have been getting weird lately. Maybe it’s just me, but…”

 

GLOAMING – A frisson of fear skips down your spine.

 

RADIO STATION – “Once, I woke up on Pluto, watching as Wakefield first stepped through the Bridge. The cameras, the rovers…” He sounds breathless. 

 

PERCEPTION (HEARING) – You have to strain to hear his next words.

 

RADIO STATION – “I was alive.”

 

MIDNIGHT SUN – Now, he is no longer alive.

 

RHETORIC – It is impossible for this person to have lived through both events. Something doesn’t line up.

 

APHELION – Memory is a fickle thing. There are many possible, *normal* explanations for this phenomenon.

 

LOGIC – A prolonged lack of human contact, for one. 

 

ENCYCLOPEDIA – Studies have shown that chronic social isolation increases a person’s risk of premature death and numerous mental illnesses. A lack of physiological and psychological stimulation contributes to the risk.

 

CONCEPTUALIZATION – What better way to escape than dreaming of the past?

 

YOU – Keep listening.

 

RADIO STATION – The operator sounds like he’s moving away from the receiver. “I figured… they never solved faster-than-light communication… wouldn’t have mattered except…”

 

REFLEXION – This station sits at the edge of a massive black hole.

 

ENCYCLOPEDIA – The time-space dilation of a gravity well of this magnitude would mean that a minute on the edge is equivalent to seven years on Earth.

 

DRAMA – Time is a social construct.

 

MIDNIGHT SUN – An unstoppable hand that extracts a toll from all of us, sooner or later.

 

YOU – Keep listening.

 

RADIO STATION – “I wish I could remember what you looked like when you got on that train.”

The static hiccups. There’s another long pause.

Faintly, as if from underwater: “What I wouldn’t give for a cup of real coffee.”

The transmission’s keen fizzles out just as abruptly as it started.

 

YOU – Lean in.

 

RADIO STATION – Nothing. Only waves of static from some distant shore.

 

MIDNIGHT SUN – A ghost trapped in circuitry, bouncing from electron to electron, rocketing out into a vast dark.  Just another mote of dust in the cosmic haystack. A memory repeating itself over and over and over… 

 

GLOAMING – The thermostat in your cabin has not fluctuated, yet a cold seeps underneath your skin. Gooseflesh prickles.

 

YOU – How much time has passed?

 

LOGIC – For the station—

 

GLOAMING – The operator huddles underneath an oversized coat, slumped over the dashboard. The coat engulfs his scrawny torso, a hatchling sheltered under its mother’s wing. 

 

LOGIC – Based on the timestamp of the last automated broadcast—

 

GLOAMING – The body has barely even cooled.

 

LOGIC – Ten minutes.

 



 

THE FOURTH WALL – Hello! Lately I’ve been inspired by various media and their ways of storytelling. As a result, the blog’s taking a somewhat different direction this semester, but the stories belong in the same overarching universe.

Sagas Among the Arcana: The Plague Doctor

I recently indulged in a new deck— Murder of Crows by Corrado Roi! (The Vault of Midnight is going to absolutely drain my bank account in the next few years.)

While I usually prefer the vibrancy of my other two decks, this one is so gorgeous. It reminds me of my assignments for art class in high school where I clutched my graphite because color pencils are messy and ruin everything.

This deck is also perfect for the Halloween season! So I’m going to use it as my primary deck for the whole of October. 

Coincidentally, one of the stories I’m working on for a class right now is in line with the spooky theme, so expect future readings to be in a similar vein 😉

On with the story!


The Ace of Pentacles is drawn — “a prosperous beginning, careful planning.”

Amina looks past frosted glass into the dead city below. 9 pm is usually the time for young people to go out and dance while drinking various martinis. But now even they are too tired to go out — too sick

Disease pervades them all. Even those who are not in bed hover near it, prepared for the dreaded fainting spells they witnessed dear ones fall to. Not Amina, though. She has no loved ones to observe falling sick; she’s only heard gossip on the streets, back when there was less fear. 

But do not mistake her for being afraid. No, she’s simply following the trends. How they all react — and how she can take advantage of that.

.  .  .

Robert is not sick. But the rest of his family is, and he has no means to take care of them. He has a master’s in engineering, yet now wishes he’d followed his mother’s advice to go into medicine. 

He glances over at her. Her once beautiful and rosy face is now gaunt and sickly. If she were healthier she would reprimand him with an I told you so.

He yearns for it desperately. 

He walks downstairs to get some water when he hears shuffling from the outside. He pauses in his steps. Who would be out now?

He thinks he hears knocking.

He slows his breathing, feeling too heavy for the hardwood floor.

The doorbell rings.

His breath hitches. 

Stupid, he calls himself. They used to get visitors all the time before this crisis. What’s so daunting about someone visiting now?  

He leaves his cup, filled by the sink. Then goes to open the door. 

He curses. 

“I hear someone is sick here?” The creature is a bit shorter than him and it speaks in a low hum. Is it a costume?

It shuffles beneath its heavy black robe, looking so antiquated along with that beak-shaped mask. Where has he seen such a thing before?

“I asked if someone was sick here?” Robert forgot that he had to speak.

“Oh, um yes . . .” Is it even safe to answer?

“Good,” it concludes satisfied. 

Robert can’t help but feel offended by this. “Good?”

“Yes. I’m a doctor, so I can help?”

Doctor?

“You don’t look like a doctor.”

“Of course I am,” it stresses.

He imagines eyes rolling underneath that crow mask.

“I’m a plague doctor.”

.  .  .

To be continued . . . (next Thursday!)

The Ace of Coins (and yes, that is Virizion holding up the card)

 

 

 

 

TOLAROIDS: Welcome back

Hi!

Regardless of whether you were here last year or whether it’s your first day at arts, ink., I wanted to (re)introduce myself. My name is  Tola and since last fall I have been a photography content creator for Arts at Michigan. I love traveling, good coffee, dogs, and bad puns (as you have figured by now). I have exciting things planned for this year: everything from the weekly photo series through photography tutorials to collaborations with other creators and photographers! For my first post, I decided to put some of my favorite images up from different photo series to show you what kind of stuff I usually do – and although travel photography definitely dominates on my hard drive, I also do a lot of portraits, studio work, reportage, and macro photography.

I will post every Tuesday (probably) afternoon, so stay tuned for more content from Tolaroids. Regardless of whether you want to learn something new about photography or maybe just look at some pretty pictures, I will make sure to keep this blog interesting and exciting for you all! That’s why don’t hesitate to contact me with any questions, comments, or concerns, or just to say hi (or send me a photography pun).

See you next week!

-Tola.

email: akilian@umich.edu

Instagram: @akilian.jpg

OTM #12: Virtual Professionalism

Hello, and welcome back to OTM! As of late, I’ve been trying to book an internship for this summer (a draining process in itself). But with Zoom interviews comes with Zoom etiquette, and I’ve been paranoid as of late that my fun, personal side is hindering my professional life. Every Zoom interview with every company brings a new layer of fear; will they say something about the amount of posters on my wall? But every time without fail my huge head covers them up, saving me from embarrassment. It’s times like these where I contemplate if I’m too cringeworthy at age twenty, but why should I stop decorating my room to my tastes just for some interviews? It’s mostly funny to me at this point, reminding me to loosen up a little. Be cringe (in moderation), and have a great week, everyone!