Evolving Emotions: Love- Poetry

Last Goodbye

She was evening nights sprinkled with fireflies. She was bouquets of every shade. She was long farewells, dandelion wishes, and key lime pie. Her heart beating atop my chest settled my breath into a steady patter every Sunday morning when the birds were chirping and her hands would hold mine, delicate and powerful, carrying me into the day with jittery excitement and beaming optimism and just when the world felt like it would fall into pieces I watched her wave with a smile plastered on her beautiful face knowing I was hers and she was mine from now until the end. She was warm embraces beneath a woven blanked. She was long road trips below a bright sun. She was mine and I was hers until our last goodbye.

Evolving Emotions: Love- Poetry

Love in June

Why does attraction bear shame
when authenticity should be bliss
beyond imagination?
What of love and a kiss?

A photo makes me worry and wonder
am I doing right by Him?
If my mind were clouded in filth, what more should I discover
as I clamber inward?

Skin-crawling and heavy-minded
I lay awake in twilight, tortured by what could be.
Is there a point in it
or will it all come crashing?

Is there pride to be found in the monochrome,
saturated only by the few with conviction?
Could there be more besides loathing?
It has a grasp on me.

Evolving Emotions: Anger- Poetry

A’s, B’s, C’s, and D’s

 

Planted on a peculiar carpet

you examine the lanes

sectioned off with yellow stripes

and white lines

 

Patches of green grass

encircle the buildings,

each with their own symbol

and saturated design

 

Behind you is a dull

knock

 

Against your back

lay the bulk of your once proud tower

 

A’s and B’s

C’s and D’s

strewn about the carpet

 

By your side

is a pigtailed girl

with pronounced teeth

and corduroy pants

 

She did this.

 

Swept up

you shriek and scream

a gut-wrenching howl

over the tower lost

and dignity torn

 

Tears flow down

with a scowl of bright fury.

Outstretched,

your hands wave

 

pleading for attention,

a witness to this injustice,

this crime of heinous intent.

 

You cry out for the giant

looming over the threshold

to bring about your uprising

and snatch her and her pigtails

in a fit of glory

 

With a turn of the head

thunderous booms

and scooping arms

 

The giants lifts you,

meeting the air

 

This is not what is just.

 

You shriek once more

flailing limbs to break free

from this traitorous captor

 

Your eyes meet the lettered blocks

and the hands

rearranging them

before you are carried away

 

For an hour-long slumber.

Evolving Emotions: Anger- Poetry

Morning

 

Flecks of glass across hardwood

shimmering in refreshed morning light

like faux emeralds.

 

Chair legs rest

splintered and sharp

near the toppled kitchen table

that you bought with her.

 

Looking down

knuckles: green and yellow

with blistery red accents.

 

Your eyes are red too

like burst fireworks

or spider webs.

 

Spent, you sit

on an old wine stain

the carpet carries

letting an empty home fill your head

with silence deserved.

 

Evolving Emotions: Sadness- Poetry

Anywhere

 

Most days I sit and think

about how I don’t want to be here

nor there

or anywhere.

 

Neither heaven

nor hell,

earth,

limbo,

a place beyond,

somewhere I can’t get back from,

a plane betwixt time and space,

a void of blank white walls,

a pit of darkness found

nowhere.

 

My lungs cave in

like they’ll shrivel and fall

caught by my ribs

clinging.

 

Ambivalence arrives

as tired tears

drop

 

Heavy limbs

weighed down

at the realization

 

that nowhere is impossible.

Inside me is nothing

and I cannot go there

 

so I must stay

until my days have passed

sitting and thinking

of a place neither here

nor there

or anywhere.