I held you tightly so you covered my eyes
Blindside me from the sight of your voice
Lips moving softly as I tremble at their sound
I wanted you
Wrapped your head in my arms held it to my stomach
Cried while watching you smile-
We are posed
Here standing in levels
But I am still underneath you
Pulsing to the breath of your touch
Loudly to the sound of your name
I sat down for dinner at 7:22
The same time I sat down for breakfast 12 hours earlier
Who knew I would know the taste of milk just before expiration
Hearing the sounds of people running downstairs and jiggling keys
Flinching with every moment that it comes closer
To the time my door is opened
When I finally have the chance to breathe
I can’t stop thinking about
The way you see me
Inverting previous admonitions
From condescension to care
I wonder if I too am inverted
If the miles between us
Cloud your words
Making fickle mist with every breath
Lessening my pace
So I can see you in front of me
Changing my stride
So that you can walk past me
Checking my words so that you can respect me
I want you to notice me
Hear me
See me
But I become invisible
To stay safe
Your limbs are tendrils
Flailing in protest offbeat
to the beat of hearts
Working
to understand
your speech.
Seek the neverending sending of messages that
teach upstanding misunderstanding of
Your hair and why it crinkles
So early after water stipples hit
Freshly
Burned
Skin
Cells that work against it
Turn you thick to sense it
Coming
Before
The wind
Your reaction
Almost human
Flesh
always brazen to the thought of the world we’re in.
I start working during the day
And when it gets dark
You turn the light on for me
I am sitting, in a low lit room
A light streaming from the kitchen
You turn the lamp on for me
I am sitting in my apartment
You’re not here
There is no lamp
