Evolving Emotions: Anger- Poetry

A’s, B’s, C’s, and D’s

 

Planted on a peculiar carpet

you examine the lanes

sectioned off with yellow stripes

and white lines

 

Patches of green grass

encircle the buildings,

each with their own symbol

and saturated design

 

Behind you is a dull

knock

 

Against your back

lay the bulk of your once proud tower

 

A’s and B’s

C’s and D’s

strewn about the carpet

 

By your side

is a pigtailed girl

with pronounced teeth

and corduroy pants

 

She did this.

 

Swept up

you shriek and scream

a gut-wrenching howl

over the tower lost

and dignity torn

 

Tears flow down

with a scowl of bright fury.

Outstretched,

your hands wave

 

pleading for attention,

a witness to this injustice,

this crime of heinous intent.

 

You cry out for the giant

looming over the threshold

to bring about your uprising

and snatch her and her pigtails

in a fit of glory

 

With a turn of the head

thunderous booms

and scooping arms

 

The giants lifts you,

meeting the air

 

This is not what is just.

 

You shriek once more

flailing limbs to break free

from this traitorous captor

 

Your eyes meet the lettered blocks

and the hands

rearranging them

before you are carried away

 

For an hour-long slumber.

Evolving Emotions: Sadness- Poetry

Anywhere

 

Most days I sit and think

about how I don’t want to be here

nor there

or anywhere.

 

Neither heaven

nor hell,

earth,

limbo,

a place beyond,

somewhere I can’t get back from,

a plane betwixt time and space,

a void of blank white walls,

a pit of darkness found

nowhere.

 

My lungs cave in

like they’ll shrivel and fall

caught by my ribs

clinging.

 

Ambivalence arrives

as tired tears

drop

 

Heavy limbs

weighed down

at the realization

 

that nowhere is impossible.

Inside me is nothing

and I cannot go there

 

so I must stay

until my days have passed

sitting and thinking

of a place neither here

nor there

or anywhere.

Evolving Emotions: Spring

Crunch and fragility

Dull brown and lifeless

A flower

Killed by cold

A horrendous annual crime

 

But upon a newfound strength

By the Earth’s nurturing scape

A blooming begins

 

Inaction and then

Elation at a new

Motion in the ground

Abolition of the lifelessness of yesterday

Captivation of colors. The

Transformation beneath. A

Foundation of weaving threads. An

Interconnection of the greatest

Creation brought along by the spring

Resurrection

 

 

Evolving Emotions: Blizzard

My legs are like columns of sheeted glass

They burn with an anger

I have neglected them

Left them to be battered

By a blizzard, hardly forgiving

 

My hands chip like old plaster

Revealing the life underneath

The pain of red

Numbed in the cold

 

My hair discourages logic

Protests order

And wreaks havoc

In front of my eyes

Shielding my face

Enough to obscure

But not enough to warm

 

A cry inside

Screaming for

Something

Anything

To feel again

To know that all will calm

 

The ice sets in

Hardening the bones

Congealing their marrow

Hindering the joints

Straining the throat

 

The blizzard takes hold

Despite my hope

For a light flurry

Following the storm

 

Evolving Emotions: You

Everything reminds me of you.

 

The faces whirl by in a sea of familiarity

I think I recognize your smile,

your walk,

your presence

I don’t.

 

A laugh echoes down the strange hallway

It settles into my ears swiftly and soundly

But it’s not you.

 

Tears flood my eyes in your absence.

The comfort that held me is no longer.

Is home really home anymore?

Is life what it was before?

No,

But I miss you.

 

I miss you and your

Charming intricacies

Audacious interests

Burning desires

The words you gifted others

The humility woven in your soul

 

Nobody can compare

And content will come

But for now

Everything reminds me of you.

 

This is the first poem I wrote when I arrived at this university. Walking by new people was like getting shot. There were a lot of tears. Everything was so new and so familiar all at once. It did get better in time, though.