On Deadlines

This is the final episode. The closing act. The last post.

I’m graduating in a couple weeks, so I’ll no longer be writing for Arts Ink. In the past three years, I’ve written 59 posts (this makes 60, which is an oddly even number). I’m not a sentimental person, but it was pretty sweet to get paid for something like this. Arts at Michigan is a good program, and I’m thankful for the opportunity I’ve had with them. Writing a weekly column about “the arts” was a means to exploring different forms of expression and an avenue to gain readership while at university. I’ve written on personal blogs before, but they lacked something that this satisfied: deadlines. Due dates are beautiful, terrible things. Every Wednesday or Thursday or whatever day of the week I was asked to post was a deadline. It kept me accountable.

A lot of people say that deadlines restrict art and creativity. That art “can never be finished” and that it “can’t be done until its perfect.” I don’t think this is true. Nothing is perfect. Man is inherently flawed, and anything he makes will therefore be flawed. That’s the beauty of art. It’s okay because imperfect things can still be finished. If perfection was the finish-line, God was barely at the racetrack. An artist needs a deadline. Without one, she will drive herself mad. She’ll keep adding to the piece until she has nothing left to give, but she’ll still find it imperfect. But if shown to others, they may be inspired by its beauty and deem it perfection. That inspiration can’t exist if the art is left undone, hidden by the artist’s insecurities. Deadlines force an artist to do her job.

Whatever line of work we do, deadlines exist. They may be our greatest enemies and we may demise them, but they ensure that the job is finished. We’re often dissatisfied with our product at the deadline, but we aren’t the audience to please. We are servants to art. Yes, we could only create that which we enjoy creating and not “sell out” to consumers, but we have to deliver irregardless of the subject matter. To create solely for oneself is mental masturbation—okay in moderation, but never in excess. We don’t have a right to the fruits of our labor. As artists, it is our job to produce. We are entitled to our work and the deadlines that come with it. Deadlines lift the yolk from our shoulders and relieve us from the toil. They let us start something new. To place “fin” at the end of a film or sign our names in the corner of a painting. Without deadlines, we’d never see the next two words.

The End.

Une Douce Resignation

When baby birds are a certain age, their mother shoves them out of the nest. In the Bible, after God created the universe and the life that inhabits it, He rested and let it be. Creation follows this pattern: investment and resignation.

In every art discipline, there is a point where the artist needs to separate herself from the piece; to resign and take a break. After hours, days, and perhaps years of devotion to a project, the creator has given everything to their work and there is nothing left to give. Most novelists, musicians, and videographers reach a point in their projects where they are finished. Despite these efforts, they may still feel that the work is incomplete. They notice microscopic errors at a macroscopic level. But the project needs to be done. Countless hours and years may be drained from the artist if they continue with their piece—changing their minds and nitpicking at their work until nothing remains. Artists who don’t heed and press past the point of completion are unhealthy, both for themselves and their creation.

When a creator clings to her work, she betrays herself. She found joy in the conception, but then devoted herself with the burden of construction—sacrificing great time and energy to bring her work to life. When she has given all that she has to give, it is time for her project to move on. To cling onto it will stifle its growth—the blanket that kept it warm becoming a cage to suffocate it. Holding on will make waste of the efforts she has invested. The clingy artists is both the creator and destructor. To avoid the latter, one must resign.

But letting go is bittersweet. It is difficult to resign from one’s passion—the pit in which the artist has poured her heart. But it is necessary, and in letting go, a certain feeling rises. The French call it “une douce resignation.” Sweet resignation.

After one’s heart is poured out, there is nothing left to give. Although this draining may appear to leave one empty, the feeling that remains is anything but. It is a sweet feeling; a satisfaction in completion and accomplishment. Everything in your power has been done, and what follows is out of your control. Your ship, decades in the making, needs to be tested on the waters. It may float, or it may sink. But either outcome is better than keeping it on the shore and wondering what could have been. In resignation is relief.

Shove your birds out of the nest and take a rest. I’m sure they’ll fly.