To my best friend. My love. My mother. My rock.
Everything happened so fast, I’m still in shock.
You are the strongest person I will ever know.
Now I hold on to our memories, but they seem so long ago.
Playing Candy Crush at midnight,
Teaching me to drive,
Watching Rema dance at Ignite,
You kept telling us “Live, don’t simply be alive.”
You were always right,
but I still liked to argue.
You said, “everything will be alright,”
I miss your advice.
You always put others before you,
never thought about it twice.
Now I hope you are finally at peace,
In your own paradise.
“I have cancer,” you said as a fact,
Yet you didn’t shed a single tear, you stayed intact.
Through all the treatments, the chemo, and pill,
You still smiled and had such a strong will.
You sacrificed everything for us.
You worked hard for us.
You hid back your tears from us.
But you were taken away from us.
Your beautiful smile,
Your quirky laugh,
Your ambition and drive,
I will always look up to you in awe.
You taught me to be adventurous and wild,
You were always the cool mom.
You taught me to be gentle and kind,
Determined and focused,
You said, “happiness is just a state of mind.”
I cry, I wish, I hope
that this is just a dream.
Because you, Rema, and I, we were always a team.
Now I’ll carry on your legacy.
Fulfill all your wishes.
I know you’re guiding me from above,
So I’ll be ambitious.
You lived, you loved, you laughed.
This I hope you see.
The only question I have for you is,
Are you proud of me?
Mommy you are my entire world,
You are as precious as your black pearl.
Every day I miss you more.
Signed…Your Little Girl.
I wrote this poem almost 4 years ago. However, it resurfaced recently through a conversation. Over the course of the semester, I have been posting poems that have been reflective of the environment around me. It felt right to post this one right now as I’ve been finding moments that remind me of my mom.