PONDERING ANN: VIII

WERE I TO WAKE 

 

In my memory lives a vast oak 

hanging one low, peeled branch— sticking out like a sore thumb

upon which a thrill seeker once tied a muddled rope swing. 

My brother who is not my brother 

but an old friend tethered at the soul 

skips rocks across the bank of the Dead River. 

We rode our bikes there after class, 

his a rusted Schwinn and mine 

a no brand hand-me-down. 

There is an innocence in not thinking twice 

about whether a thrown stone 

might thrash a friend cascading from above. 

Some time has passed now 

and we haven’t talked in a way that matters 

for too long a while. 

Were I to wake on this vacant night 

it would surely be that I dreamt of the way 

two stones never skip the same.

PONDERING ANN: VII

THE DISPOSABLE CAMERA,

 

a yellow point and shoot,

captures twenty seven frames.

 

When time comes

I’ll develop them,

writing little blurbs 

in chicken scratch 

on the back,

 

reminding me of loved 

ones, where my weary 

legs traveled, of sunsets 

that sank and sank

again.

 

Eric, cigarette plus shades

Brynna, wetsuit off the South Shore

Dad, beneath the skateboard rack

Prospect beach stretch, empty 

Forget me nots

 

I can almost hear 

laughter, the lull 

of a quiet shore

after the sun has 

shattered through

the world’s floor

and sunk beneath 

Superior to a 

long night’s rest. 

PONDERING ANN: VI

FEVER DREAM ON THE CORNER OF N. STATE

 

I was once approached by a grizzled crone, indefinitely stoned. Stoned

myself, I couldn’t help but welcome the gnarled lump of a man. Man

we were both toasted. Toasted

in the quiet of that stagnant August night, he delivered a sermon. Sermon

for the damned, perhaps. Perhaps 

I looked the part to listen. “Listen”,

he croaked: “You can never imagine a new face. Face

the facts, kid”. Kid

you not, I was so stoned I dreamt the nomadic soul before me was God. God

himself had returned to visit me on that still evening. Evening 

out my eyes, I shook God’s hand, and gave him my only dollar as an offering. Offering

his thanks, God and I parted ways, never to cross again. Again,

I was more baked than a twice-baked potato casserole from hell. Hell,

I reckon I really did meet god in some form. Form 

your own image of God, but good luck trying. Trying

to picture God, I still think of that molted man’s face.

PONDERING ANN: V

SYNCHRONICITY

 

Why do you write poetry?

is the icebreaker of nightmares,

an answerless multiplicity

of syllables and dreamscapes that coalesce

the same as white tees and red wine. 

There is only coincidence beneath

every great love story

and this is no exception. 

Why because my mother worked nights

and laid to rest as I woke. 

My sprightly, boyish words 

had nowhere to go 

but the page. 

There are one million other

accidental reasons. 

PONDERING ANN: IV

MORNING SHOWER 

 

I have bent my hand 

into the shape of a

chewed orange slice, or 

a telephone cord curl,

just so that the droplets

of tap water draining

from the showerhead

roll down and appear 

to pool from the very

tips of my fingers. 

 

I am staring for 

too long, and soap 

has started to fall into

my eyes. I’m trying 

to catch the bits of

life we let slip 

through the cracks.

Like in the law quad, 

how symmetrical gothic 

arches are adorned by 

gargoyles

 

jutting their tongues

at each passerby.
Or the child today 

sitting in the greenery,

with her jam stained

hand stolen into one 

pocket of a yellow 

raincoat, the Morton

Salt kind, and making

the same gargoyle

 

face right back! And 

although she did not 

win that tongue-out 

staring contest, she 

gave the stone creatures 

a run for their stone

money. 

This is a miracle.
No shooting stars 

or runaway eyelashes.
This is it! All

this living makes

me think of the 

time my lover and I

walked the banks

of Lake Michigan 

and paused to gaze

at the cold pools below. 

 

Oh, the warmth

as our stretched smiles

filled the air, cackling

at the sight of a lime

green electric scooter

hurled into the depths

below. You could just

make out the shape of

of its handlebars,

the rear wheel, and

we smushed our cheeks 

together like two

rotten apples, laughing 

at this work 

of a mad man, or 

an artist, or an architect 

of human nature. 

PONDERING ANN: III

EQUINOX AT THE BELLTOWER

 

The squirrel hauls a belly sash 

of acorns, the shoes scuff, and 

any of these faces might kiss 

the sun for its newfound shine.

Their song is ringing.

Round the marble cracks and slim

branches, each singing a melody of 

buds, though winter teases, winter

teases. Still, there is ease in this.

There, song is ringing. 

 

The diag scuttles plain as day, the

students crustaceans swarming at

the decay, coming out of shells to 

pincer the waking world. Shhhh- 

They’re a song, ringing.