Evolving Emotions: You

Everything reminds me of you.


The faces whirl by in a sea of familiarity

I think I recognize your smile,

your walk,

your presence

I don’t.


A laugh echoes down the strange hallway

It settles into my ears swiftly and soundly

But it’s not you.


Tears flood my eyes in your absence.

The comfort that held me is no longer.

Is home really home anymore?

Is life what it was before?


But I miss you.


I miss you and your

Charming intricacies

Audacious interests

Burning desires

The words you gifted others

The humility woven in your soul


Nobody can compare

And content will come

But for now

Everything reminds me of you.


This is the first poem I wrote when I arrived at this university. Walking by new people was like getting shot. There were a lot of tears. Everything was so new and so familiar all at once. It did get better in time, though.



If you could write me 

You’d write wrong 

Right before you 

Say something I’ve said 


How could you 

Could you know-how 

You could wait 

Wait till you can 


But then 

You’d be too early 


Early morning 

I see you sleeping 

Slowly breathing 

A smile slipped 

Across your face 


But who could talk

While tangled 


Evolving Emotions: Regretful “I”


Question her lack of

Reciprocation. I made a

Declaration about my

Intentions and yet her dull

Reaction leaves me in my

Emotions. Is further

Action necessary? Or should I stir in my

Ambitions and keep

Caution close to the chest? For the

Duration that I remain

Fixation is all I know.

Rumination about what could have been if I had

Conviction in my speech. What could have been of this

Situation if I had told her? My only

Communication was a pitiful



Evolving Emotions: Never Quite Right

A strange place

The table isn’t quite situated

On the once whole tiling

Proper is the word


The smell that once greeted me

Feels out of place

Inside my lungs, it is a stranger


What has become of

The inhabitants

Which I thought I knew?


Nothing could’ve prepared

My mind, my body

For this upheaval 






In the now fractured life

I stubbornly live

My arms crave a rope

My feet, solid ground 

Unsatisfied is the word


This bizarre, unsatisfying abode

Which I once called home

Is now alien

With a peculiar look

And paint laced with difference 


Will things return

To the gaps in my head?


Will I find peace

And solace in the disruption?


Nothing will take its original form

The form has shifted

The feeling has shifted 


My perception has crossed

Into a foreign land


Unbeknownst to me

This is only the beginning 


Evolving Emotions: Last Glow

I saw the stars this morning

The sun had not yet climbed the shingled roofs

Nor surmounted the plumes of smoke

Produced by the slumbering city


Each a fleck of twinkling perfection

My eyes gleamed alongside them

In a vast gift

A sight to behold


These gems of the sky are deceptive

They hide their torment

The destruction that defines their state

They are dead and dying.


That which is beautiful

Is temporary

Breathe in the expanse

The comforting peace

This quiet morning


For it is not forever

Although we wish it to be

There will be a last

Air leaves the lungs

Carrying the soul in its glow


These precious stars shine

Despite their fate

Despite their circumstance


Do not grieve

Let the feeling linger

Let the light bathe you


Do not taint it with sadness

For it happened

It was wonderful


I saw the stars this morning

And it was wonderful.

This was taken on a camping trip with friends a few years ago. It was a moment of pure joy.